Funky to Fresh

Why hello there... sweet blog of mine!

It has been awhile! I did not abandon you! I was looking over past posts and we have been on a bit of a roller coaster since I started you!!

Soo, I suppose I should update you....... Well, it's not been good! Not good at all! My diet has consisted of Pop, Scooters, Fries, Ranch, Cheese... McDonald's, Runza.... It's just been bad!!! So, what have I been feeling because of this.. TIRED, ANGRY, NEGATIVE! I have been irritable.. crabby... negative... I just have felt inside that I have been going through the motions.

I of course tried a couple times to "diet" "eat healthy" whatever you want to call it... give up pop for the 40th time this year.. NOTHING was getting me out of this FUNK I was in!! I was talking to Liz and Lindz and I would have great ideas and concepts, but I was just not following through!! I got the book A Course in Weightloss 21 spiritual lessons to losing the weight forever by Marianne Williamson (One amazing lady!) This is where things began to click!!!!

This book is helping me to look into why I have issues with eating, weight, and being healthy. I have recently discovered that I like to run away from things! My apartment is messy... I just keep running away from the problem instead of cleaning it! I am doing this with EVERYTHING I don't want to deal with.. Work, Money, etc..... I realized with some of these things I have been running for a couple years... and the problem is not getting better! I am not magically getting money in my account, by not addressing the problem!

Soooo... I set a date and said I am starting with my health because I need to feel good to tackle the other things! So, Monday November 29th I made the change! I decided I needed to go strict for awhile or I would just fall back into the cycle... So, NO pop, NO caffeine, NO chips.. and then I am trying hard to say NO to bread, noodles, tortillas, milk, cheese, eggs...

Day 1-4 were the hardest because of the caffeine headaches! I also had to tackle 4 out to eat experiences. I had a thin crust veggie pizza with NO cheese at pizza hut... soup and salad at olive garden.. eggs and hash browns at ihop.. and a pretzel at the mall! Soo, I tried to make the best decisions at each place. and I feel good about my decisions!!

I am now on day 9 with NO CHIP, POP, or CAFFEINE which hasn't happened in... well EVER!! haha!! Even when I was cleansing last year I had corn chips!! Soo this is huge!!

How am I feeling now.. OMGOSH! MUCH BETTER!!!!!!!! My tiredness has decreased GREATLY!! I am feeling like I have soo much more energy!! My plan is to stick with it until December 23rd, and then pick back up again December 27th. Then December 31st- January1st off and then January 2nd to the marathon.. back at it!

I am glad to be back!!!
I missed you!!!

Peace and Love,
Heen

Operation NiCE!

One of my favorite blogs to stalk is Operation NiCE. Melissa is the blog master who posts about all things NiCE!!! Her consistent positive NiCE-ness is such an inner spark ignitor! She posted a couple days ago about a woman named Michelle who was turning 34, and for her birthday did 34 Random Acts of Kindness!! Which sends shivers of excitement down my spine when I think about my 26th birthday... because I am totally copying Michelle!!


Operation NiCE is turning TWO!! To celebrate Melissa challenged her blog readers to place NiCE Notes around for others to find! She also said to take pictures and email them to her to be posted!! So here is one of my NiCE notes, combined with a little Random Act of Kindness! :)

Random Act of NiCE!

Peace and Love,
Heen

My new found love.... Coconut Oil!

I just discovered the dirty talking, coconut oil!!! I have been using it as a moisturizer for a couple weeks now. Applying it liberally when I get out of the shower, and dabbing it off with a towel. I can already feel a difference in my skin!!

I have been hearing coconut oil is also a great oil to cook with. I have not had much of a chance to try it until tonight... and WOW!! So I made green bean - mushroom stir-fry you could call it, and roasted beets!

Green Bean and Mushroom "stir-fry"

So I heated up the wok with a little EVCO as Rachel Ray would say... aka extra virgin coconut oil.
Then cut up my green beans (fresh and organic from my fave CSA Fox Run Farms!)
Then my mushrooms (not local unfortunately)
And then did the stir fry thing for awhile.
Then pressed two cloves of fresh garlic into the deliciousness.
Then stir and fryed until everything was cooked!

I feel like the coconut oil made it cook differently, and enhanced the flavor differently. I felt when I cooked with olive oil it made the food taste heavy, if that even makes sense. I am now in love with cooking with Coconut Oil!!!

Yo, dj... Give me a beet!

So, this is where the dirty talk really happens!

slice the raw beets.

dollop of coconut oil.

roll the slices in the dollop.

splash of salt.

cook at 425 for about 20ish minutes.

enjoy.

Just beet it.

beet it.

beat it.

beat it.

No one wants to be debeeted!

Peace and Love,

Heen

Guess who's back with a brand new rap!

HEY!!!

So... I always have my blog in the back of my mind, and recently I have been thinking about it more and more!!! I love blogging, but I keep struggling with where I want to go with my blog.... and today it hit me... I want my blog to just go with me! I want my blog to represent me, and all of me! The ups and the downs!!!

I have tried to post a couple times, and it was always feeling like I was repeating myself... or I have already blogged about this struggle! So, I wouldn't write it, or wouldn't post it! But one of the dreams I have for my blog is that it will be relatedable, and people will find comfort in my struggles being similar to theirs and will then find motivation that they to can do anything they dream of!!

Soo, my blog is going to come with me for the ride! Up and down! And I am very excited because we have some great things coming up in the future!!! 8 to Great training in 5 days!! Salt Lake City in a week!! Raw veggie cleanse in a week and 4 days when i get back from UT!!! 10k training for September!! Taking classes online through Clayton College of Natural Health!!!!

SUPER PUMPED!!!

Soo, I will be in touch!!!!
Peace and Love,
Heen

i. feel. like. an. addict.

Ok.. I am going to ramble.. I am tired, but I want to get this out of my head!!!

I am scared! I want to be healthy.. I want to be thinner, a healthy thin! I want it... I want it really bad (so I think), but why do I keep self sabatoshing??? What is the reason I keep making poor food choices?!? When I eat healthy, I don't feel deprived of food! I actually feel full of energy! So why then am I able to talk myself into McDonalds or pop? I literally HATE both those things morally for soo many reasons! But yet I support them... I feel like a drug addict in a way! I know better, but I can't stop!!! I need a plan, but I have made them before? What do I need to change??? I don't have a very "supportive" environment.. and it is no ones fault... I am just constantly surrounded by people making food choices, that are opposite of the ones I would like to make... But maybe this battle is this way so it helps me to find the strength to do it on my own!

I walked/ran the half marathon today and I was soo happy running it, but crossing the finish line didn't do it for me.. I felt like a faker.. I wasn't proud of myself at all.. I am ashamed because I know I can do it and I have been making TERRIBLE food choices, and have been SUPER lazy! I didn't deserve to be proud!!! I really didn't!!!

This has been a 7 year battle... when will it end! Maybe thats just it... When will I make it end!?! I just needed to get all that out... I love motivating and supporting others... why can't I do it for myself?? I want that amazing euphoric feeling I had last July/August!!

peace and love,

frazzled heen

simple. thoughts.

blog.

blog.

blog.

I have not abandoned you.

Honestly, I have had soo many different thoughts going on! Good thoughts. Just a lot of them. A lot of soul searching thoughts... What do I want to be.. What do I want to stand for... All things I want to blog about, but it seems they just flood my mind and when I start to blog I can't focus... And it just becomes a rambling.... Which is what they are doing to my head which is making it hard to focus on anything!! I catch myself just like starring off a lot.. Like I am not really with it... Soo, I have decided to try and just focus on some small simple things....

healthy food choices. vegan.

not spending money. thrifting.

getting active. not focusing on "working out" but being active.

positivity. surrounding myself with positive people.

gratitude.

peace and love.

heen.