Can a demotion send you in an up motion?

I ASKED for a demotion... Never thought that would be in my career path. Never thought I would voluntarily go backwards! I woke up the next morning thinking, "Was I high yesterday?" May have been one of the single hardest decisions I have made in my 26 little years!

I know... You want the dirt.. the juice... the reason behind this crazy decision! Well I hope you have time because this could be awhile! haha!!

Last year I took the job as Facility Supervisor with a gung ho attitude! I was ready to change some lives!!! I was scared.. I didn't know if I could do it.. I didn't know if I was ready... But I shot for the moon! I was quickly thrown into a position, and came to realize I didn't really know what I was doing! Over the last year I have spent a lot of time trying very hard to learn the position, the paper work, everything that came with the job. I compare the last year of my life to a 3 ring circus... An out of control circus in which I would spend time in one ring getting things under control and the other two would spiral out of control.. So I would leave and go tend to another ring... and this went on... and on.. and on.... All while trying to have a social life, focus on my health, train for a half marathon, continue on a path of self-discovery, AND living 90 miles from my family for the first time in my life! Everyday was up and down... I would wake up happy and ready to take on the world, and by the end of the day I felt like I accomplished nothing and had no desire to clean my room.. my car... run... eat healthy....

I decided something needed to change in January. I gave it all I had... I changed my eating habits... Running became a part of my life.. Heck, I even won a Wellness Challenge through my chiropractor! But still.... I continued to feel like the ring leader of this out of control circus!

I sat down with myself and said, this can't happen anymore.. for you.. for your company.. for those around you... this must STOP! So the decision of what to do.... demote or find another job... Another job is always appealing... A new chance, new co-workers, new opportunities... But what was it that I wanted? What would I do... After going to the job websites I realized I had NO IDEA what I would do! Secretary? Did I reallly want that or was I just telling myself it sounded like a good idea.

A position came open working directly with the individuals at work... Great hours.. I know all the individuals and co-workers... So I was left with the question.. apply or not to apply... What do I want to accomplish in this life? Do I want to go back to school? What would be my dream job? Can I get there with my current position.... After tears and many many many discussions with my parents, sister, boyfriend, friends and current co-workers I just felt like for me, for my dream, this needed to happen! Someone posted on my facebook, "Some of the best dances start by taking a step backwards first" :)

So, here we are..... I have officially demoted.... I don't know where this will all lead me, but I am excited!

breathe. dream. love.

Teeney bit of Heen!